For instance, today should hopefully be the last Crappy Chemo Monday I have. Mondays have traditionally been the day when I can't keep a thought in my head for more than 2 seconds and have a difficult time doing any work. It's like having ADD for a day.
Otherwise known as "shiny object syndrome".
Here's an example of what my Monday thought process looks like:
Me: OK, I'm going to sit down to do some work.
*Opens Windows Explorer to find the file that I need for the work I'm going to do*
Me: Wait... what did I need to do again? OK, think... think... think! Oh yeah, I was going to work on targets.
*start to look for the file I need... about 2 clicks into the "hunt", I'll get an email*
Me: Ooooohhh, look, an email! Lemme read that.
*reads email, it's a company wide email about travel*
Me: OH! I almost forgot I need to book that house for that trip to San Fran with my friends in the fall. I should go look and see what houses are still available.
*opens the website to look at houses. Looks at approximately 1 house*
Me: I wonder what airfare looks like.
*opens up website to look at airfares*
Me: Hmmm... the whole goal of this trip is to run a half marathon... maybe I should research a good half marathon training program.
*googles half marathon training programs*
Me: I wonder if I'll be even recovered from surgery fast enough to DO this thing... *sigh* I wonder what surgery is going to be like. I wonder what my boobs will look like when this whole shenanigan is over.
*opens google and types in "mastectomy results"*
And THAT, my friends, is how I go from doing work on a Monday to looking at pictures of post-mastectomy surgery results (aka boobs) while at work. Don't worry, I usually don't actually look at the boobs. I usually catch myself before I ACTUALLY go down that road with a "GET BACK TO WORK!"
But this is the cycle I go through about once per hour. Start to work and get very easily distracted.
For an entire day.
If this is what real ADD is like, I have NO idea how any one with ADD gets anything done.
My coping mechanism for Mondays was to make Monday my "meeting day". I'd schedule meetings all day. Because when you're talking to a person, you HAVE to focus. Well, you don't HAVE to, but it's darn hard to start googling things when you're not at your computer :)
So here's hoping that this is my last Crappy Chemo Monday! Forever and ever!
If you need me, I'll be googling something random.