I have one child and am pregnant with my second.
I am happily married to a man that is currently deployed in Afghanistan.
I have breast cancer.
That last one is pretty tragic huh?
And cancer + pregnancy is TOTALLY tragic right?
And cancer + pregnancy + my spouse being deployed is just the worst things anyone has ever heard.
Well... you can think of it like that. And, to be honest, there are days that I DO think of it like that.
But I prefer to try to find the funny in life. Laughter is my defense mechanism. I like to be funny. I like to look at life and instead of focusing on what is awful and depressing, find those things that make it hilarious.
Before I was diagnosed, I was acting as a Chemo Angel for a woman with lung cancer. One of the things I did was look up quotes about hope and love and laughter to make cards for her. I came across this quote by Bill Cosby.
"Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it."
This is my quote to live by.
Cancer is not funny. The fears and craziness that have come with this diganosis are not funny. I AM human and I am scared sh*tless about the fight I'm about to enter into.
The day to day living of my life and the humor I have already found in this are what will keep me sane. If I can find the humor in this and manage to laugh at myself along the way, I can keep true to who I am.
And that is my goal.
Behind staying alive and giving birth to a healthy baby, my goal is to come out of this experience with my sense of humor and my positive outlook on life intact. I know this experience will change me, but if anything I pray that it will simply make me stronger, more determined and more thankful for all the joys that God gives me daily.
So please join me in the journey to find the funny in cancer and to remain sane during the upcoming year. It won't all be funny. And I'm sure I will overshare (sorry family/hubby). But I hope at the end, I will have an honest record of my experience to share with anyone that might benefit from it.
And let me just thank everyone that has already shown me so much love and support during this time. The outpouring of support I've gotten in just the few weeks since diganosis is overwhelming. I've already gotten care packages and cards and letters. I truly feel blessed to have so many loving, wonderful people in my life.